Waiting, waiting, waiting for my man.

It's official. I'm done waiting for things to unfold. Sitting back and watching time works it's magic has done nothing but hang an image of that 6 month old Mc. Dick's cheeseburger I read about in the tabloids over my worried head. It looked the same, just a little smaller and less (for lack of a better word) vibrant. Which is exactly what I'm scared of, being unchanged. I made the "waiting mistake" today when I sat down in Cigarette Central located outside the Lazy Lurker's Lounge at Bunker Hill. It was the last place this hypocritical "I only smoke when I'm drunk" goober wanted to be. Of course cigarette smoke annoys me ten times worse now that I'm guilty of having been in love with them and even still, understanding why. It's kind of like breaking up with a really good looking asshole. So I hung out, talked with some "smokers" and took way too long saying goodbye. I watched a train go by in the distance, headed in the direction I needed to go. It was the train I would've caught if I hadn't waited so goddamn long and left the very first time I had said goodbye. Figuring that was my que, I finally left.

"Attention all passengers. Due to a disabled train at Chinatown Station, we are experiencing delays in service to Oak Grove. Sorry for any inconvenience."

I finally left and the littlest, fastest, redest hand on the big clock of my life.. finally punched me in the face, along the pungent aroma of what was probably "good mids." I wanted off that train station platform faster than you could say "just jump in front of the next one." I had to wait, and I did. Stepping out of Malden station and into the crisp air, I realized that I didn't have anywhere to be.

I was so goddamn anxious for no blatant or immediately obvious goddamn reason. So it was right then I was determined to find out what was itching my skin. And if by scratching my itch, I could find out what makes my clock tick, I would sure as hell figure it out. I've had the layout for this blog done for a couple of weeks but I'm not waiting any longer to start it. Still putting off that shower though..